looks like there's no reply

already listless, sluggish, and the Paxil's giving me vertigo, and one of the things I liked most about myself was I was nuts on high metabolism and high energy, and I'd take all the insomnia back for that again, as long as the panic attacks go, so I'm thinking of adding Wellbutrin, they say that's good, oh, four in a thousand get seizures but that's okay, and fortunately, and I'm not being ironic, I believe in drugs.

worked a long day today, which is good, otherwise I'd've slept 48 hours through from Sunday. working a long day tomorrow, and then the girls here for Enterprise and WW. working a long day thursday, and two doctors' appointments and I have a list of questions already, I've been adding to it, and I haven't even gotten to the part where I breathe through my sleeve and today at Barnes & Noble I only went to the basement level because I thought I'd be safe from a nuclear blast there. working a long day friday.

But you know, she says, and the radio says what's it all worth anyway?, we get better. I'm already better.

but you know, she says, also, I really do think Boba Fett's in love with Han.

guided by Tolstoy and the moon

this song is about Chris McCandless, the one who burned his cash and changed his name to Alex Supertramp and walked off into the Yukon and starved to death in an abandoned bus, and it sounds good to me right now.

I bought the book. I read the book. I hate Thoreau. I think I have a civic duty to pay my taxes. I read Tolstoy. I prefered Vronsky to Levin. but the snow, the safe, that erring unspecific ensuredness that, no, no, I can take care of myself, Chris said, when the trucker tried to lend him a parka and snowshoes, and I know, and I had it, and I miss it.

Sahara will never be the south of France, obvious with the rising sun. if I had no home I'd build one in the sand, if I didn't have a love I'd find me one

L did remind me it snows here though, and while it looks like I'm depressed, I'm not, I'm just broody, thinking of other times and other places where it was before and it's not here and it's not now.

Except, you know, I wanted that before too.