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Jan. 13th, 2003 03:50 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sabHappens every year, like this, around Passover time. at least, they're having Passover on TV, Dan and Casey are. And Jeremy, and Pharoah's assistant Maggie.
But anyway, they're all in this place, and there's cutbacks, so Dana's looking for other work for Natalie in case the budget doesn't look good, and there's time to eat between shows, but there's running around, and matzoh, and in between, sitting on piles of those "I Survived Draft Day" t-shirts, they're making TV.
I still wanna make TV. How do I make TV?
Office jobs fire me because I come in late, because I oversleep. Once I'm there I'm brilliant, they love me, I have good ideas, I get busy. But I get ushed into uncreative positions (at PBS, I was in charge of the budget actuals) and I get cranky and I oversleep and then they yell at me and then they fire me because I'm not a team player.
I'm SO a team player. I want to be a team player on a TEAM, making TV.
I want a job where they won't fire me because I oversleep, because I know how to do this, what's more I'm good at this, *I* could do Natalie's job, I could certainly do Annabel's job. Every job I've had I've forged new ground, made contacts, made connections, gotten shit done in my inimitable Me way. But it always descends into paperwork and then I oversleep and then they fire me.
So, I say, "I don't like office jobs." What with the hours and the doing things I don't want to/am not equipped to do. Nobody would hire me as an accountant. But I'd account, if it were for the show, I'd account if I were MAKING TV.
So I say, I'll freelance, stay home till I sell a script. But that's the hard route, and the no money till I get there route, and I don't even want to sell a film script for the money, I just want it for the cachet, so I can be brought in elsewhere as a viable writer, so I can write, and not account.
And once you're a writer, they don't care if you oversleep.
I tell 'em, I'll work till midnight if you let me come in at 11 instead of 9, and that's okay if you're a writer but not if you're an accountant.
I've got no money. I've exhausted my contacts, maybe? Maybe not. Got not Movie Magic Screenwriter 2000.
So what do I do, next?
It's my birthday in a couple weeks. I want to make TV. What do I do next?
All I can do over here is not sleep. Ambien and Sports Night, and not sleep.
I need something else in my life. I need TV in my life, and right now, the closest I get is watching Nick at Nite. And it almost works, because it's something, but it's lonely, and it's not.
Like I'm knocking: "let me in!"
Jeremy's praying now, the kiddush, I'm crying now, hot Ambienated tears. let me in It's almost my birthday it's a new year, like Passover, let me in
But anyway, they're all in this place, and there's cutbacks, so Dana's looking for other work for Natalie in case the budget doesn't look good, and there's time to eat between shows, but there's running around, and matzoh, and in between, sitting on piles of those "I Survived Draft Day" t-shirts, they're making TV.
I still wanna make TV. How do I make TV?
Office jobs fire me because I come in late, because I oversleep. Once I'm there I'm brilliant, they love me, I have good ideas, I get busy. But I get ushed into uncreative positions (at PBS, I was in charge of the budget actuals) and I get cranky and I oversleep and then they yell at me and then they fire me because I'm not a team player.
I'm SO a team player. I want to be a team player on a TEAM, making TV.
I want a job where they won't fire me because I oversleep, because I know how to do this, what's more I'm good at this, *I* could do Natalie's job, I could certainly do Annabel's job. Every job I've had I've forged new ground, made contacts, made connections, gotten shit done in my inimitable Me way. But it always descends into paperwork and then I oversleep and then they fire me.
So, I say, "I don't like office jobs." What with the hours and the doing things I don't want to/am not equipped to do. Nobody would hire me as an accountant. But I'd account, if it were for the show, I'd account if I were MAKING TV.
So I say, I'll freelance, stay home till I sell a script. But that's the hard route, and the no money till I get there route, and I don't even want to sell a film script for the money, I just want it for the cachet, so I can be brought in elsewhere as a viable writer, so I can write, and not account.
And once you're a writer, they don't care if you oversleep.
I tell 'em, I'll work till midnight if you let me come in at 11 instead of 9, and that's okay if you're a writer but not if you're an accountant.
I've got no money. I've exhausted my contacts, maybe? Maybe not. Got not Movie Magic Screenwriter 2000.
So what do I do, next?
It's my birthday in a couple weeks. I want to make TV. What do I do next?
All I can do over here is not sleep. Ambien and Sports Night, and not sleep.
I need something else in my life. I need TV in my life, and right now, the closest I get is watching Nick at Nite. And it almost works, because it's something, but it's lonely, and it's not.
Like I'm knocking: "let me in!"
Jeremy's praying now, the kiddush, I'm crying now, hot Ambienated tears. let me in It's almost my birthday it's a new year, like Passover, let me in
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Date: 2003-01-13 08:58 am (UTC)I love you very much, but I don't understand this problem you have. Perhaps it's because I'm from the Midwest where we just suck it up and do the uncreative job so we have money and try to do what we love in our spare time. I can't imagine letting it slide or getting fired because I'm bored and unengaged or hate my job. I am often astounded watching your life because it's an actual option. It's like actually being Dorothy Parker. I can't even imagine that.
But I really do understand your frustration and the feeling that you're not doing what you SHOULD be doing. I understand that oh so very well.
So go out and do it. You're the one who actually can because you know the right people and have loads and loads of talent. Go out and knock on doors, and if that doesn't work, knock them down. Farscape isn't being made any more, but where are those people? They know you, too. What are they doing next and how can you hook up with some of them?
You have a million and one brilliant ideas, so write something to have in your hand, already. You and I both know that when you're carrying something finished it gives you instant credibility with other creatives.
Who do you know who is making an indie film right now? Who do you know who is actually filming a documentary? Who is shooting a pilot? Who is looking for a pilot? Give somebody a pilot.
You CAN do all these things and get back to doing what you love. People need you and your talent. TV needs you. I want to watch what you make.
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Date: 2003-01-13 10:06 am (UTC)-J
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Date: 2003-01-13 10:32 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-01-13 10:35 am (UTC)PLUS, I'll up the ante:
I'll spend a month (a full 31-day month, mind you) keeping GLATT KOSHER when you sell your next script. Separate dishes, the works. I would do that to see something you wrote. Hell, yes.